why does he do me that way?

it's human nature.

i hate it when i don't know what to feel.
i don't feel sad. happy. sad. alone. like crying.
i feel....... empty. kinda ticked off a little, but not that much. i've just been ticked off the whole day today. nothing big. just a small "wtf" kind of thing. i don't understand why. but whatever. its almost 2am. i got home at 1:30am...........and i have a volleyball tourney at 10:00am..IN NORTHVAN. lovely.

k well, I JUST WANT TO SAY THANKS AND SORRY TO THE PEOPLE I ANNOYED TODAY..:$ i know you know i know you know who you are! k well yeah, thanks tho.. for not giving me a bunch of bullshit when i know i acted like a total bitch.

anyways, to get back on topic..
i'm just scared. scared of getting left alone again, not of getting hurt, just getting left alone. i don't want the same thing happening over, and over, and over again. i don't know. whatever. i love you.